Maybe He's Not The One For Me

 Hi.

It's me again. Looking for a place to rant, and I remember I had a blog, a place that I always rant on everything back in the old days. 

    I just broke up. After 3 years of relationship, he said he cannot give me the attention that I need and he's not ready to have someone in his life. AFTER THREE FREAKING YEARS OF RELATIONSHIP. Well, I know that's just some stupid and childish excuses. I thought maybe I'm too clingy to him until he realize that he didn't need a girlfriend.

    Later last night, I found out he went out with a girl and most likely he left me not because of he's not ready or what but literally because of he had his eyes for another girl. I feel like I'm being used. Maybe he's bored during his degree time and needing someone to do his quizzes and stuff. 

    There's me standing there waiting like a stupid person believing in everything he said including when I found out he'd been texting his ex and he said they're just friend. Well, I hope someone can slap me in the pass on how stupid I was.

So, I'm afraid to fall in love again. Maybe not for the rest of my life but for some time. I maybe got a crush for a moment, but to fall in love, no thank you.